Life is a funny trip

Alright I've been sick and CRAZY busy with school lately that I've fallen behind on my blogging completely. The big graduation day is coming closer and closer......though i will be an extra semester senior.....and I'm still starting to panic. the plan as of right now is to go to grad school before actually entering the "real world"......but i keep thinking once i walk across the stage and get my BA who the hell is going to want to jump right back into school? then again I am not too eager to grow up as much as I'm eager to move out. One kind of has to do with the other though so I guess I will figure it out in time....... more late I'm just being lazy in the library.

Life can change in a minute

Its one of those days when you feel something fall out of our world.......Natasha Richardson died today after suffering a brain injury from a ski accident. Things happen to celebrities and sometimes one passes away, and unfortunately you become almost immune to feeling bad when people you don't know have died.......this is a death I feel sad about. The fact that this beautiful, mother, wonderful actress had a minor fall that has ripped her from the Earth is just sad. I can say that I along with millions of other girls who watched The Parent Trap look at Richardson and wanted her to be the mother you came home from camp to.......I will always remember that warmth that you felt when her smile showed up on the screen.

I have been very fortunate to realize that in fact life can change in a minute. I can still remember my minute quite vividly and it changed my life story forever and I have yet to fully recover. I don't think I ever will. Losing my father at 16 to brain cancer wasn't ever in the cards and hit me like a truck and that mark doesn't go away. I feel for her two young sons and my heart goes out to her sister and her family in general. Having been left with one parent, I am lucky that I have the strongest mother in the world as my mother. I know Richardson's husband looks to have the same strength.........today's been tough ya'll.

Ok so last night was St Paddys day......and today I'm back from a fun night of drinking and running into people all over my town here. It was a good night and I had the best time without any weirdness or running into people I don't care for. It was good and I have this fun new outlook on life recently and am really enjoying this whole thing. Got Bethenny Frankel's new book and just got done skim reading it and confirms that I adore her and she is actually a very intelligent and witty woman. I'm going to put her book into practice in my new outlook on life.....dear god I sound stupid. Ok so I'm still sick a little with this flu/virus thing that seems to be going around so my physical activity is so down and I'm feeling sluggish. Hopefully tomorrow I will be able to go into a workout or just back to running.

OK so this whole future thing is completely starting to freak me out. I am in this weird place of wanting to grow up and growing up and being on my own and just wanting to be in second grade again where everything is simple and easy. It's a scary place for a very close to a college graduate. I guess we will all figure it out with time.

Spring Fashion Musts: coming soon!!!

skinny girl margarita night!!!

So we've all had that week when you didn't do well on the test, the guy you like is kissing his ex girlfriend, and you just want to be alone......well how i handle that is my sister, the real housewives of NYC marathon and skinny girl margaritas!!!! i adore bethenny frankel and how she is on the show and i love margaritas but they are SO bad for you!! when i heard about her Skinny Girl Margarita last year I jumped on the bandwagon!!! so after a tough week and a hard night last night this is the exact thing i need!!! tomorrow I'm going to go out and buy Frankel's new book and read up on how to be naturally thin because thats what I need in my life right now.......to only work on me!!! I really want to train for a marathon this year too.......stay tuned

marathon??!!

Have you ever been in that situation where all you want to do it run? Literally and just in my mind in general. I am just in that place in my life where its like ok enough i want to run away. Not permantly but I just want a new start a new beginning a NEW SOMETHING!!!!!! i want to start over with new people who don't think they know what I'm thinking all the time. I have no patience for anything lately and I just want to run. I've been feeling sick the last couple of days so maybe its just the inactivity but i want to run. I want to drink tequila and run......probably not together......def not together. Tomorrow the marathon training begins......i want to feel my body strong..........this is what happens when you havent been with a dude in a long time people....THIS IS WHAT HAPPENS...........

Enough has to be enough

OK so places everywhere this week have been saying that Chris Brown and Rihanna are back together......I completely understand that there are two sides to every story but I cannot understand in my mind where there would be justification in beating a woman to the point that the picture of Rihanna shows her obviously bruised and even bleeding. This is something that has come out of left field for me completely because I have admired Rihanna's privacy but her public strong image that she has put out for young girls. Her style is something to admire and Chris Brown's music alone is something to admire as well. As a person who ADORES music and really listens to every type, I have loved both of theirs for a long time. Showing that they are back together shortly after this type of abuse is horrifying to me as a fan. Being not a teenager anymore I can say this isn't something that would influence my choice to immediately leave any situation like this I would personally be in......but young girls, especially those of the African-American community need to understand that in no way is Chris Brown right in this situation. I am disappointed that Rihanna family and people close to her have not urged her to stay away a little long.......my mother would have killed whoever did that to me though. We are women and we are strong and there is no situation in which we should have to return to someone when the relationship comes to physical abuse PERIOD. I have been a part of a abuse situation to a smaller degree and let me tell you it was handled well and not easy but had to be done.

I pray for both of these entertainers and hope that something good and informative will come out of this situation being so public.