Oh I have a boyfriend......his name is college.....its very serious

I've neglected my blog lately because I've been so crazy busy with school work that I haven't had time to blog.......or for that matter eat. It's been so hot here and with school and running around I've literally probably had one meal a day, crazy I know, and I never believed in the whole "too busy to eat" excuse but I totally get it now. About 2 more weeks of the madness and then its HELLO SUMMER!!!! stressing about the future is put on hold because I'm too busy to stress about anything but school work. Weekend plans: Friday-First Friday's in BA, Saturday-Towson for fair and party at B's and then Sunday- group work at school......Hope everyones having a very good week!!!

XOXO

Reminder: I'm scared of needles.......

So I've been sick on and off for about a month straight. So today after suffering through a 10-hour shift at the hospital I decided to suck it up and go to patient first. Wait was so short I didn't think it was going to be as bad as I've heard. Got back to my "room" and the doctor came in. OK he was the goofiest, kookiest doctor I've ever seen. He was just odd and trying to make jokes and be weird while I was coughing up a lung. He ordered and chest X-ray to clear out bronchitis and then he said the dreaded words.

"I want to get some blood from you too while you're here"

UMM WHATTTTTTTTT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!?????? OK so my 2 greatest fears in life: snakes and needles. I tried to remain calm throughout the X-ray and then the person who was going to draw my blood walked in. Now he was probably 20-years old at the most, which to me created an automatic panic attack. Now the kid was SO nervous, kind of rambling, that I felt so bad I didn't even give him the regular "You mess up I punch you" speech I give everyone. When he thought he got a vein he got ready and stuck me, nothing. Pulled the needle out, moved it maybe an inch and stuck me again, NOTHING. At that point I almost lost it but I knew he was so nervous and upset that I just kept my cool. He got it on the 3rd try but WOW it hurt like hell

Ended up leaving Patient First with strong cough medicine and a Z-pack, exactly what I predicted. I'm 3 tubes of blood shorter and now completely traumatized.

With some good red wine and my brand new shoes.........

OK have you ever had that week when you had no clue what happened........the week that went by in a flash which left you saying "what the hell"?! well this was my week! I had some sort of mid-mid life crisis where I even lost it in a Panera when talking about the future with my Mom, and I did so much school work I almost lost my mind. Came home today and my Mom had bought me a bottle of Shiraz and Grey's was on...........so hopefully that is a good sign of things to come!!! I need some retail therapy tomorrow!! I need new shoes!!!!!! I need a man.....ew no I don't. I'll let you know........

Worst place I could be sent is the Congo......

OK so I have this itch to get out, out of my environment, out of my house, out in general, I just want to run away and start over. Now my life is not that bad at all, I'm very lucky, but I have never been in one place for such a long time. When my Dad was alive, we were always going somewhere or doing something, so I'm used to a fast paced life. My mom's worked hard to try and keep up that pattern for us, but I need a faster escape. So last night I lost my mind and decided to look at the Peace Corps Website. I looked at all the information and thought it was a free, and accessible way to get out. I looked at all the places people in the corps are sent and honestly there are some damn scary places. The worst one I could find was the Congo. Coincidentally there was a representative that was visiting my school today and I took a meeting with one. Well when I informed my mother about this, she kind of flipped out.

Now if you know me you know I'm not exactly the roughing it kind of girl. I like being within about five minutes of a Target, and I like running water, and I'm afraid of public transportation. So the Peace Corps could either leave me crying for 2 years, or make me a better person. My mother has decided that she would rather send me anywhere I want to go in the world, paid for, then have me go into the Peace Corps. She is determined that we can find something I want to do that doesn't require health check-ups for malaria.........I'll think of another way to get out tomorrow :-)

My worst nightmare

So I've heard so much about this new movie coming out on HBO with Drew Barrymore, whom I adore, so I decided to do a little YouTube-ing and found the original documentary of Grey Gardens. Now I watched the whole thing and am fascinated and completely horrified at the same time. These women literally living in solitude for years and years in this house with cats everywhere is like literally my worst nightmare. I love my mother, probably more then anything in the world, but the thought of being stuck in isolation with her out of obligation for years in a house that is literally falling apart around us terrifies me. I needed a shower immediately after watching it, but I admire the story and can't wait to catch the new version on HBO soon.

i'm single and apparently i have something wrong with me now

OK, so if I step into one more room or bar or mall and see someone I know from High School or just around my town that asks me the 2 major questions:

When are you graduating?

Are you seeing anyone?

"Probably in December and NO!"

Dear freakin god since when is the fact that you are seeing someone almost as big as a deal as if you are graduating college? Honestly anyone who knows me knows that I don't "see" people and if I was, you wouldn't know it until I was basically engaged or had too much to drink and was actually showing affection. I'm just no that girl, never have been. I have this feeling of having too much to do right now in my life, but I'm guessing that if it was the right person they would fit. You know what I'm not worried about it.....I'm 22 god damn years old, going to be 23 in a couple months, and I don't think I have some disease just because I haven't had some long term, life altering relationship by now. Kill me!!

I like to think that all of these people who have been dating forever and have been in love 5 times by the time they're 20 will be divorced and miserable by the time I actually make it work with someone fantastic.......evil but whatever. I'd rather spend my time wandering Barnes and Noble or Nordstroms then sitting at my boyfriends house that he shares with what 2 or 3 other smelly dudes playing Wii or Xbox, because at 22 that's about the only people I could have been in a relationship with......call it picky, I just know what I want and I want to have fun when I'm young, legal and blonde.

Won ton soup for the soul

Alright so of course I have seem to have come down with a mild case of strep throat in the last couple of day. How do I know its strep? I checked Web MD.com and my sister the nursing student checked my throat as well, I'm not a fan of the doctor's office so this will have to do. My mother being the amazing woman that she is went to pick me up some Won-ton soup yesterday. I've always hated chicken noodle and ever since I was little and sick my moms been getting me Won-Ton, it's my thing don't judge me.

It has also been raining cats and dogs for the past 2 days. Let me just say nothing is worse then going to school in the rain when you are sick. It's not like high school where you can just skip all the days you don't feel well. Professors do not care that you feel like your head is going to explode and your throat is going to close up at any minute.

OK, so last night was another Real Housewife of NYC episode which I live for, I love the Bravo network and all of it's doings but Bethenny Frankel is the reason I watch this one show. I am constantly adoring both Jill and Bethenny, while wanting to strangle Ramona and LuAnn. I mean Ramona's face is bothering me and I know that's vain and non feminist of me to make fun of others looks, the woman's eyes are going to eventually pop so far out of her head they are going to land on someone Louboutin's. The show was somewhat entertaining but not the

amazing drama it's been feeding us lately.

On a different note, I want to have fun and be tan and get my butt back into working out but with a failing immune system and the ran, obviously God wants me to be in the house, drinking tea and eating chocolate. Well if it's what God wants......